Walters, Introduction. Part I: The Diary. The Diary and the Story Book. Part II: The Story Book. Part III: Thinking About The Story Book. My First Thoughts about the Story Book. Part IV: Towards a Change of Aim. Crosses, Trees and No Arms and Feet. Water, Tears and a Use of Gravity. Part V: Using My Own Pictures. Always Protecting Your Mother. Two New Free Drawings. Play of Making Collages from My Failed Paintings. Part VI: Different Kinds of Order. Words Made Flesh. The Incantation and "The Hidden Order of Art". Part VII: The Family Setting. My Father, His Breakdown and Recovery. My Mother and Us Three Children. Me Being Physically Ill and the Undine Story. Part VIII: D. W. Winnicott and Me. Being in Analysis with D.W. Winnicott. A D.W. Paper on Disillusion About What One Gives. D.W.’S Doodle Drawings. Part IX: Towards Wholeness. Towards Bringing Bits of Oneself Together. The Easter Story. An Area for the Play of Opposites. Useable Dreams. Appendix: Last Pages.