Thanks and Acknowledgments 9
Preface: Writing (with) a Movement from Bed 15
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1. Care Webs: Experiments in Creating Collective Access 32
2. Crip Emotional Intelligence 69
3. Making Space Accessible Is an Act of Love for Our Communities 74
4. Toronto Crip City: A Not-So-Brief, Incomplete Personal History of Some Moments in Time, 1997-2015 79
5. Sick and Crazy Healer: A Not-So-Brief Personal History of the Healing Justice Movement 97
6. Crip Sex Moments and the Lust of Recognition: A Conversation with E.T. Russian 114
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7. Gripping the Apocalypse: Some of My Wild Disability Justice Dreams 122
8. A Modest Proposal for a Fair Trade Emotional Labor Economy (Centered by Disabled, Femme of Color, Working-Class/Poor Genius) 136
9. Prefigurative Politics and Radically Accessible Performance Spaces: Making the World to Come 149
10. Chronically III Touring Artist Pro Tips 156
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11. Fuck the "Triumph of the Human Spirit": On Writing Dirty River as a Queer, Disabled, and Femme-of-Color Memoir, and the Joys of Saying Fuck You to Traditional Abuse Survivor Narratives 164
12. Suicidal Ideation 2.0: Queer Community Leadership and Staying Alive Anyway 173
13. So Much Time Spent in Bed: A Letter to Gloria Anzaldúa on Chronic Illness, Coatlicue, and Creativity 180
14. Prince, Chronic Pain, and Living to Get Old 187
15. Two or Three Things I Know for Sure about Femmes and Suicide: A Love Letter 192
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16. For Badass Disability Justice, Working-Glass and Poor-Led Models of Sustainable Hustling for Liberation 206
17. Protect Your Heart: Femme Leadership and Hyper-Accountability 213
18. Not Over It, Not Fixed, and Living a Life Worth Living: Towards an Anti-Ableist Vision of Survivorhood 225
19. Crip Lineages, Crip Futures: A Conversation with Stacey Milbern 240
Further Reading and Resources 257